Other Americas
The girl from the next block told him Baptists
ruled because We don’t have to do this,
she said, and danced her hands across her chest,
meaning the sign of the cross, and someone
called her Okie, which explained a lot
later, when aerospace went flat and her
father moved. There are Americas
you never dream of. Oscar Quiroz sat
next to him his first months in California.
The boy could hardly say his name, shy as dirt
and with no common language. By the end
of the year, when Judy Lopez died, when
Mrs. LaLonde assigned Oscar to be
pall bearer, he knew enough to say Never
and fainted to the Mission brick. It was
another world two years before in the gray
TV where the assassin was shot
in his white shirt and a horse drew the caisson
past federal granite. We were different
people, new chapters of ourselves, by the time
we walked that same street with our kids. We opened
And in the desert,
those towns like Boron, Tonopah, or Wells,
what did people do afternoons it wasn’t
too hot? He saw them walking in pairs past
ocotillo and yucca toward the lowest
spot in the valley, the place the lake forms
those few weeks each winter, then evaporates.
In Montana, he knew a white man who
lived three years in a tipi inviting
Wakantanka to join him. And Andy
jumped out the 27th floor window
on West 72nd. And Patty moved back
and forth from Provincetown to Key West, looking
for her father. Chicago burned again,
thanks to Daley’s thugs. And here, frozen
in Minnesota, 100 miles up
a tributary of the Upper Mississippi,
current pulls hard as summer toward the Gulf.
On the gallows, 1862,
the Indians sang the only hymn
in their own language, not a death chant
as reported. Thirty-eight Dakota
sang to the same god as spectators,
and it was the day after Christmas at
the river’s edge, the snap of their necks
pulled toward the Gulf. There are countries
you never dream of.
In 1962,
he floated on his back in Lake Mead.
The petroglyphs could not look out at him
from their deep dark, and he could not hear them
from our boat, riding a hundred feet
of water, winding through the quiet
narrows, the drowned gorge. We glided beside
the Arizona border, through layers of
ever-younger stone. We trolled over
the footpaths of ghosts,
each scuff mark and splinter
Powell left passing through time. Even when
he stands in one place, there is another
country waiting for him to discover it,
under the skin of water, under blistering
sky. There is another America beyond
his naïve, disappearing skin.
Walt Whitman,
it has come time to praise and curse the reach
of your arms across minor hills and through
barren cities, where the beautiful, godly,
even the ugly and deranged, gather
under your beard. How narrow our life
by comparison, your flesh sent out in eddies,
an electric storm perforating these small
cosmos of cells. How casual your call
that we kiss the face of AIDS on the lips
and wash the feet of the beaten. In that
famous photograph where you hold
a butterfly, a fake paper prop, you
nearly bring it to life with your breath,
or so we would believe. Walt Whitman,
you have ruined the earth for us, praising
oily lagoon and salt palace alike,
drag queen and heiress, starling and finch, all
because you will observe no difference
that ever mattered to God. You take in
every bit of continent and breathe
it out again. Bridge, lizard, virus,
ambulance, tornado, gold ring, false teeth,
apple orchard, factory, revolver,
gangrenous foot, opera, gallows trap door,
president, guitar, encyclopedia—
Even as you lie under snow and brown
lawns where you make your claim, we will not
find you as we look for you, we will not
hear you as we listen, we will not answer
as you ask too much. Still, you might touch us
anyway, a wind from two directions,
little girl wondering out loud where grass
has gone, your finger on the national grief.
published first in St. Ann's Review and then in Other Americas (Blueroad Press).